[Salaam] Guys, I think I'm a little bit too late to say Salam Hijr [hehe]. This year, I'm kinda busy with all school stuffs. Know that I'm a vice monitor of 4 Sumaiyah. A secretary for BKT (Badan Ketua Tingkatan). A secretary for the ping-pong club. Chairperson for ELS. One of the naqibah(s).
Note that there're some terms that you might not know. I think it is most probably is the word NAQIBAH. Naqibah comes from the word Naqib which means head or leader. Well, what leader am I? A mafia society? NOPE. It's for our BADAR. BADAR stands for BAdan DAkwah dan Rohani.
For the form 4's naqibah(s), it's their first experience leading their juniors especially. Having such activity is a blessing for most of us. We teach and learn in the same time. How awesome is that? HOWEVER, being a 'teacher' is kinda a burden to me. I keep on thinking.. What if I teach them something wrong? Am I qualified enough to be a leader? What if I hurt their feelings? Those though are still roaming on my mind.
I am a naqibah for 10 juniors. Why are my what-so-called students are so small in size? It's because I'm leading an USRAH called USRAH KHAS. They are the chosen ones. They are chosen not because they're naughty or undisciplined students. THEY'RE CHOSEN BECAUSE THEY ARE THE FUTURE DAI'E. If any of my juniors are reading this, please don't be upset for being separated from the others. I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart.
Seriously. If a really responsible person is given a trust. He/she WILL CRY at least once because of the burden.
Rasulullah said: "Imaan isn't complete for the people who aren't trustworthy and who is not acceptable prayer for those who aren't clean and his/her Islam is imperfect for people who are not accepted their prayers" - (Reported by At-Tabrani)